My little girl will be going for a surgery

My little girl..and she is only 4 years old going on 5 this year will be going thru a minor surgery tomorrow to remove a cyst in the inside of her bottom lips. I seem to be in state of daze? Shock? Because I can't seem to come to terms with my baby going for surgery no matter how minor it is. I don't like the idea that she has to go thru general anesthetic so that she will go to sleep when the doc performs the surgery. I don't like that someone will insert a knife and cut a hole in her inner lips. I don't like to think that she has to have suture after that. And I will worry myself senseless while waiting for the lab to come back with the results of the cyst after removal. I worry and worry. And... What if she is allergic to it? What if she goes into a fright and clings to me before the surgery? What ifs what ifs. I guess I'm the one with a trauma. I'm scaring myself silly.

My little girl fell down hard on her face some months back. I didn't check if she hurt her lips of teeth as I saw no blood and she didn't cry much. Two months back, I accidentally saw some white specs in the inner lips and thought it was some rice or food and I wanted to wipe it off. It was then I discovered that it was something protruding out from the inner lips. My girl then said no pain. We took her to the paed and she told us to leave it alone and ignore it as it will go. Said it is a cyst due to blockage of saliva glens. Gave us some med to apply. I didn't go off. Took her to the dentist and she looked damn blur and gave some passing remark that 'perhaps we should remove it'. Took her to a normal GP, she asked me 'what is it? Never seen before'. Then the Daddy tried to apply some salt to 'help burst the cyst' and to some success it went down by half. Two weeks later, it came back and bigger. Got worried and immediately took her to Columbia Asia to see Doctor Cheok who referred us to an ENT specialist in the same hospital, Dr Megat. Nice and patient guy. He explained that it is cyst and it could be due to trauma or blockage of saliva glens or what else as it is hard to say but don't worry, it ain't anything dangerous.  Phew! But still, he recommended to remove it since it has been there for some months. Ermmm... In fact, I agree as it is already affecting Rachel as she kept biting on it accidentally and causing it to hurt. So, quickly we scheduled for tomorrow to perform this surgery.

Children this age must sleep thru the surgery. In fact, Ryan who has severe gastric and digestion problem and who is also seeing a specialist (sigh!!) was on standby to do a stomach scope and that doc also explained that kids have to go with general anesthetic as they can't keep still. Yep, I've been in and out of hospitals seeing specialist since Jan. So much so I asked a feng shui master to check what's wrong.

Rachel will also be given a local anesthetic on the cyst area so that it will help when she wakes up. And then after, she will go on antibiotic and pain killers while we watch for possible signs of infections. She will be in pain...arghhh!! So the doc told us to prepare ice creams as she can't hardly eat after. I also just bought her some toys to distract her when she wakes up after the surgery. She doesn't need to stay the night at the hospital, thank God!

Just yesterday, my friend told me that she will also be given the IV needle. Oh no! Sure Rachel will freak out! How to handle?! So, now you know... My trauma and my tension. Yes it is a minor procedure but face it, she is only a 4 year old!

Bracing myself! Luckily my husband will also be there. Coz I'm scaring myself silly with my imaginations and worries.


Joanne